Yes, I'm Aware I'm Going Crazy

Strawberry flavored ghost dots...LIARS.
Orange fruit snacks...LIARS.
Blue shock tart at the end of the package...LIARS.

Maybe my problem is that I'm relying on candy to foretell my future. Maybe my problem is that I'm desperate enough to let candy foretell my future.

I hope I'm not crazy and that I'm not the only one who does this.

Have you ever had something that drives you so crazy that you start making bargains with yourself?
"If the next car that passes me is a truck I will get an A on my History exam."
When the next car that passes you is a truck you get so excited and a major confidence boost.
When the next car that passes you is a mini van you tell yourself that those little bargains are just fake anyways and that it doesn't matter, you can still get an A.

Well I have been making these bargains with candy for the past month and a half...for the same thing. And each time it's what I want.

"If the next ghost dot I eat is strawberry flavored..."
"If there are no orange fruit snacks in this pack...."
"If the last shock tart in this package is blue..."

Each time the dot is strawberry, each time there's no orange fruit snacks, each time that shock tart is blue.

But as time goes on I can more clearly see every day that what I'm bargaining with candy for isn't even worth this obsessing.
No matter what the candy tells me, I know that it's wrong. I don't want it to be wrong. I want this so bad. But if the candy were right wouldn't things be set right by now? I guess I didn't give the candy a time limit.

Maybe over time it would be...but now I need to decide if it's even worth it.
.........
Sadly, I don't think so.

Freshman 15

It has been ages since I last did this! How sad, but now that I am back to it I am hoping to get a little more frequent again. Anyways! Since I have been running low on inspiration lately, I'm making another list.

Fifteen Fun Facts About Freshman Year (So Far)

1. It is much harder to wake up for an 8 am class now than it was last year.

2. Procrastination is a lifelong disease that cannot be cured.

3. Working out at a gym is much more productive than working out at home. No one is around to judge me if I take a "break" at home. At the gym ya gotta power through or risk looking like an out of shape lazy waste of a human.

4. Don't buy fridges from Wal-Mart. They randomly shut off about 4 times a day, so all you can keep in there is Diet Dr. Pepper and Propels.

5. Finding a bestie from your most miserable class makes it a lot more bearable.

6. Not every weekend is a party....i.e.: I spent last Saturday night eating Taco Bell alone in my car in a parking lot and driving around Bozeman singing to Taylor Swift...yeah I know....haha.

7. Just because the cafeteria has delightful sprinkle donuts every morning does not make it okay to eat them every morning.

8. Cards, money, and care packages from Momma and Daddy and Sissy make life swell :)

9. Facebook sees me about 40 hours a week. I think they need to pay me for being so loyal.

10. Being 20 minutes away from a beautiful big sister, a pretty little niece, free laundry, and a lovely home cooked meal is fabulous.

11. My roommate is lovely!

12. Be careful who you develop creepy crushes on from afar. The world is smaller than you think. It could turn out to be the most awkward thing ever when you realize who they really are....I won't elaborate.

13. Just because you're in college, does not mean you will suddenly develop sophisticated old people taste. Don't bring black coffee to class hoping that you'll suddenly like it. You'll be wishing for a gallon of creamer after the first taste. Yuck.

14. Wal-mart, Taco Bell, and Facebook creeping are all great things to add into an all nighter.

15. ...I miss my hula hoops....