Strawberry flavored ghost dots...LIARS.
Orange fruit snacks...LIARS.
Blue shock tart at the end of the package...LIARS.
Maybe my problem is that I'm relying on candy to foretell my future. Maybe my problem is that I'm desperate enough to let candy foretell my future.
I hope I'm not crazy and that I'm not the only one who does this.
Have you ever had something that drives you so crazy that you start making bargains with yourself?
"If the next car that passes me is a truck I will get an A on my History exam."
When the next car that passes you is a truck you get so excited and a major confidence boost.
When the next car that passes you is a mini van you tell yourself that those little bargains are just fake anyways and that it doesn't matter, you can still get an A.
Well I have been making these bargains with candy for the past month and a half...for the same thing. And each time it's what I want.
"If the next ghost dot I eat is strawberry flavored..."
"If there are no orange fruit snacks in this pack...."
"If the last shock tart in this package is blue..."
Each time the dot is strawberry, each time there's no orange fruit snacks, each time that shock tart is blue.
But as time goes on I can more clearly see every day that what I'm bargaining with candy for isn't even worth this obsessing.
No matter what the candy tells me, I know that it's wrong. I don't want it to be wrong. I want this so bad. But if the candy were right wouldn't things be set right by now? I guess I didn't give the candy a time limit.
Maybe over time it would be...but now I need to decide if it's even worth it.
.........
Sadly, I don't think so.
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