12 Fun Things About Myself
1. I have grown two inches in the past two years.
2. I laugh to myself a lot.
3. I usually leave some sort of sparkle residue wherever I go.
4. I have a drawer full of nail polish.
5. I write songs.
6. I have the weirdest phobias that make me cry.
7. I hate doing laundry.
8. I like to dance.
9. I usually am singing.
10. I don't like to work out.
11. I love Taylor Swift.
12. I like candles.
12 Things I Am Thankful For
1. God.
2. Mom and Dad.
3. Lovely siblings.
4. Nieces and nephews.
5. The best friends anyone could ever ask for.
6. Candy.
7. The opportunity to further my education.
8. My job.
9. Having a great place to live.
10. My amazing extended family.
11. The stars.
12. Netflix.
12 Things I Want To Do Someday
1. Kiss someone at the top of a ferris wheel.
2. Organize a flash mob.
3. Become friends with or date someone who has an Irish accent.
4. Teach a child how to read.
5. Sing a song I've written to someone I wrote it about.
6. Adopt a dog.
7. Do a cartwheel on a beach next to the ocean in the middle of the night.
8. Write a novel.
9. Get married to a guy who treats me well, is my best friend, and makes me laugh.
10. Have three kids.
11. Run a marathon.
12. Volunteer at a homeless shelter, animal shelter, and orphanage.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Gripes!
I am not organized, and for the most part I choose to wing it in almost every area of my life. However, lately there have been way too many uncertainties in my life, leaving me feeling confused, a little lost, and sick to my stomach.
I have no idea where my education/career is going. I met with my adviser and found out that it is possible for me to graduate a semester early, which is great! But now I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get into the classes that I need to, let alone have enough classes to take to be a full time student this semester. Sick feeling begins.
On that note, since I have no idea what my schedule will be next semester, I have no idea what my job situation is going to look like. Will I be able to keep the one I currently have or have to search for a completely different one last minute?
In addition, it feels like 99% of the people around me know where they're going, or at least which direction they're going, with their relationships. I, however, seem to be stuck in the quicksand of square one.
Also, I have no clue what I'll be doing or where I'll be this summer. Home with Mom and Dad? Back in Great Falls? Stay here in Bozeman? Or go someplace completely random and crazy just to get a little experience in me?
Even little things, like what finals will be like, will I be able to get through them and end the semester with a good GPA?
I realize I am venting/complaining when I have so much to be grateful for. I have great friends and a great family and great opportunities ahead of me and a great God working with me. I'm so thankful for all of that!
But I just never expected to feel so young and uncertain at this point in my life! It's pretty scary, but I know that is where the magic begins.
So, here's to all my college friends: One day we will look back on this time and it will all make sense. But until then let's just roll with the punches, pray through the hard times, and find the beauty in the madness!
I have no idea where my education/career is going. I met with my adviser and found out that it is possible for me to graduate a semester early, which is great! But now I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get into the classes that I need to, let alone have enough classes to take to be a full time student this semester. Sick feeling begins.
On that note, since I have no idea what my schedule will be next semester, I have no idea what my job situation is going to look like. Will I be able to keep the one I currently have or have to search for a completely different one last minute?
In addition, it feels like 99% of the people around me know where they're going, or at least which direction they're going, with their relationships. I, however, seem to be stuck in the quicksand of square one.
Also, I have no clue what I'll be doing or where I'll be this summer. Home with Mom and Dad? Back in Great Falls? Stay here in Bozeman? Or go someplace completely random and crazy just to get a little experience in me?
Even little things, like what finals will be like, will I be able to get through them and end the semester with a good GPA?
I realize I am venting/complaining when I have so much to be grateful for. I have great friends and a great family and great opportunities ahead of me and a great God working with me. I'm so thankful for all of that!
But I just never expected to feel so young and uncertain at this point in my life! It's pretty scary, but I know that is where the magic begins.
So, here's to all my college friends: One day we will look back on this time and it will all make sense. But until then let's just roll with the punches, pray through the hard times, and find the beauty in the madness!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Getting Through
I read somewhere that your problems will never go away until it teaches you what you need to learn. Whoever said that has a point. It should be so simple. But it's not really. It's not like you can just say, "Okay, God, I get it now! You can make this go away now."
But it doesn't work that way, I think. For me, it's something that I really can't figure out. I do think that we are supposed to learn something from every experience that we have. But if a similar thing is repeatedly happening, I think that it might be a deeper issue that you can't just figure out when you want the problem to go away. I think sometimes it's such a big thing you need to realize that it takes God giving you a lot of similar experiences to learn from. Each time it happens, you learn a tiny bit of something new. Every new struggle builds off the past ones, and every new little tip you learn builds off of the old ones. Eventually, I believe that you have been through so much and learn enough little things that they can combine into one big realization.
And then you're ready for that struggle to turn into something good.
It makes me think of an obstacle course...like in the army. The ones where you have to start over if you fall down or mess up. You trip over the same thing enough times that each time you start over you learn a new way that doesn't work. And then finally you have figured out all the ways that DON'T work and you can finally get through it. And then it's on to the next obstacle.
I think life is a series of things like this. Everyone's struggling with something at some point, but we all learn how to get through it. Just because we're all fighting our own battles does not mean we can't enjoy life. I think that's the best way to help get through it all...to focus on our blessings and do what makes us happy and see the great things that surround us.
At least I know that's what helps get me through the rough patches.
So there's my deep rant for the day. :)
Hope everyone has a great week and has tons of happiness today!
The end <3 :)
But it doesn't work that way, I think. For me, it's something that I really can't figure out. I do think that we are supposed to learn something from every experience that we have. But if a similar thing is repeatedly happening, I think that it might be a deeper issue that you can't just figure out when you want the problem to go away. I think sometimes it's such a big thing you need to realize that it takes God giving you a lot of similar experiences to learn from. Each time it happens, you learn a tiny bit of something new. Every new struggle builds off the past ones, and every new little tip you learn builds off of the old ones. Eventually, I believe that you have been through so much and learn enough little things that they can combine into one big realization.
And then you're ready for that struggle to turn into something good.
It makes me think of an obstacle course...like in the army. The ones where you have to start over if you fall down or mess up. You trip over the same thing enough times that each time you start over you learn a new way that doesn't work. And then finally you have figured out all the ways that DON'T work and you can finally get through it. And then it's on to the next obstacle.
I think life is a series of things like this. Everyone's struggling with something at some point, but we all learn how to get through it. Just because we're all fighting our own battles does not mean we can't enjoy life. I think that's the best way to help get through it all...to focus on our blessings and do what makes us happy and see the great things that surround us.
At least I know that's what helps get me through the rough patches.
So there's my deep rant for the day. :)
Hope everyone has a great week and has tons of happiness today!
The end <3 :)
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Caramel Tea and Pink Nails
How can I ever be worried with so many back up plans?!
Plan A: Graduate college with an Elementary Education degree so I can become a teacher somewhere in this state.
Plan B: Go to beauty school and become a beautician.
Plan C: Write a New York Times Best Selling Novel.
Plan D: Post videos of me singing and guitaring to my songs on youtube and get discovered by Justin Bieber.
Plan E: Start a cupcake business called HappyCakes.
Plan F: Gain 278 pounds, go on the biggest loser, lose it all, and then become a motivational speaker/personal trainer for future biggest loser contestants.
Plan G: Buy Rosetta Stone for French, learn it, go to France, and make a name for myself there as a ballerina.
Plan H: Befriend Katie Couric's daughter. Then once Katie gets to know me she will see how charismatic and lovely I am and then refer me to Good Morning America, where I will become a regular news anchor.
Plan I: Change my major to engineering. Get a beautiful engineering major with ambition to fall in love with me. Once he has proposed, I will drop out of school. I will be a stay at home crafting, baking, dancing, mom while he makes $500,000 a year.
Plan J: Build the world's largest water slide. Paint it pink and sparkly.
Plan K: Genetically engineer a breed of horses to become unicorns. Open a unicorn amusement park where unicorns roam free and give people rides to any place that is happy.
Plan L: Teach a dolphin to talk. Bring him to SeaWorld.
Plan M: Discover a new species.
Plan N: Find Atlantis.
Plan O: Try out for American Idol.
Plan P: Get a job being Sleeping Beauty for Disneyland.
Plan Q: Learn to quilt from Brooke. Quilt the world's largest quilt. Then hold the world's largest cuddle party with hot chocolate, marshmallows, Christmas movies, and the big quilt.
Plan R: Solve the Da Vinci code.
Plan S: Be the girl to finally tie down John Mayer.
Plan T: Finally get my dad to write his autobiography and be his editor and publisher...that way when it sells a zillion copies I will get some of the cut and be able to live comfortably until I need to move on to the next plan.
Plan U: Create an app that you can google a personal thing...such as "Where did I leave that checkbook?" or "How hard do I really need to study for this test?".
Plan V: Get hired on as a celebrity's entertainer. Live with them, and whenever they are bored I have to make them unbored by taking them shopping, dancing, cooking, or just telling them stories I made up.
Plan W: Get MTV to come videotape my life and make it into a reality show. It will be called "Sparky in the Valley."
Plan X: Move back in with Brooke and Jeremy. Learn German. Become the neighborhood housekeeper named Valencia.
Plan Y: Locate 8 large refrigerator boxes. Move to Miami. Create a home with the boxes. Collect 7 cats, 2 pigeons, and a squirrel. Live there in peace forever.
Plan Z: Back to plan A I guess?
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Mysteries of the Sky
It's always weird to me when I'm in class and the professor says something totally relevant to my life, without even meaning it that way.
Today, for example, in Astronomy, we were talking about the various models of the solar system that have existed over the past 500 years. My professor brought up something called Ockham's Razor and defined it as: "All things being equal, the simplest solution tends to be the best one."
Suddenly, my mind was no longer on the solar system. I began to think about how Ockham's Razor is true for almost all aspects of life. And then I started thinking about how complicated I make things.
I don't have a problem admitting that I am a true over-thinker. I worry about things that aren't even problems yet. It's completely ridiculous.
I've ruined relationships, opportunities, and many happy moods by unnecessarily analyzing things to the point that they are so complex, I can't figure out how to deal with them and then I just throw it off to the side.
So after being reminded of my stupidity from an Astronomy professor, I am going to make a point to try to let the simple solution to things be my first option.
"Missing somebody? Call!
Want to be understood? Explain!
Want to see someone? Invite!
Have questions? Ask!
Don't like something? Say it!
Like something? State it!
Want something? Ask for it!
Love someone? Tell them!
Nobody will know what's going on in your mind. It's better to express rather than to expect. You already have the no, take the risk of getting the yes! We have one life, keep it simple!"
And that's all. :) Xo<3
Today, for example, in Astronomy, we were talking about the various models of the solar system that have existed over the past 500 years. My professor brought up something called Ockham's Razor and defined it as: "All things being equal, the simplest solution tends to be the best one."
Suddenly, my mind was no longer on the solar system. I began to think about how Ockham's Razor is true for almost all aspects of life. And then I started thinking about how complicated I make things.
I don't have a problem admitting that I am a true over-thinker. I worry about things that aren't even problems yet. It's completely ridiculous.
I've ruined relationships, opportunities, and many happy moods by unnecessarily analyzing things to the point that they are so complex, I can't figure out how to deal with them and then I just throw it off to the side.
So after being reminded of my stupidity from an Astronomy professor, I am going to make a point to try to let the simple solution to things be my first option.
"Missing somebody? Call!
Want to be understood? Explain!
Want to see someone? Invite!
Have questions? Ask!
Don't like something? Say it!
Like something? State it!
Want something? Ask for it!
Love someone? Tell them!
Nobody will know what's going on in your mind. It's better to express rather than to expect. You already have the no, take the risk of getting the yes! We have one life, keep it simple!"
And that's all. :) Xo<3
Sunday, August 12, 2012
I Finally Learned???
"When one door closes, God always opens up a better one for you to step through." Four summers ago, after getting my heart broken for the first time, my mom wrote this in a card for me.
Though I didn't really have the experience or perspective to realize it then, I know now how true this is. I went into this summer still wounded from a heartbreak I experienced earlier this year. I let the toxicity get the best of me for about 10 months...and then one night about a month ago I slammed the door shut and stood in awe as I witnessed another one opening before my eyes.
I think that to see that better door finally open up, one must make a conscious effort to close and lock the door behind them. The only time people stand under doorways for long periods of time is when there is an earthquake...but life is not an earthquake that we need to hide from. If something is not working out we need to get ourselves into a place where we can be better.
So that night when I slammed the door I just felt a change of heart. Why should I wait around for something to make me happy when I could be happy now? I made a decision to make that happen. But that meant going out of my comfort zone. That meant letting someone go that I spent a whole year waiting on. That meant giving the nice guys a chance.
And guess what? I'm happier now than I've been all year. I burned yet another bridge from yet another not so great relationship and I survived. I finally let myself be happy and take a risk to find someone who would actually keep his word and make me smile. And this time if it doesn't work out it won't hurt the way it did before because the nice guys don't hurt girls on purpose.
My mom really knew what she was talking about when she gave me that card so long ago. I know that there are more doors I'll need to close. But now I have proof that God will never take something without giving something better in return. We can all be happy if we have the courage to cut off attachments to the things that are holding us down and look towards the sun as we move on to a better place.
And that is all for my corny, sentimental, over-sharing blog for the summer! Stay tuned for my random, crazy, let's avoid packing one coming soon this week :)
xo <3
Though I didn't really have the experience or perspective to realize it then, I know now how true this is. I went into this summer still wounded from a heartbreak I experienced earlier this year. I let the toxicity get the best of me for about 10 months...and then one night about a month ago I slammed the door shut and stood in awe as I witnessed another one opening before my eyes.
I think that to see that better door finally open up, one must make a conscious effort to close and lock the door behind them. The only time people stand under doorways for long periods of time is when there is an earthquake...but life is not an earthquake that we need to hide from. If something is not working out we need to get ourselves into a place where we can be better.
So that night when I slammed the door I just felt a change of heart. Why should I wait around for something to make me happy when I could be happy now? I made a decision to make that happen. But that meant going out of my comfort zone. That meant letting someone go that I spent a whole year waiting on. That meant giving the nice guys a chance.
And guess what? I'm happier now than I've been all year. I burned yet another bridge from yet another not so great relationship and I survived. I finally let myself be happy and take a risk to find someone who would actually keep his word and make me smile. And this time if it doesn't work out it won't hurt the way it did before because the nice guys don't hurt girls on purpose.
My mom really knew what she was talking about when she gave me that card so long ago. I know that there are more doors I'll need to close. But now I have proof that God will never take something without giving something better in return. We can all be happy if we have the courage to cut off attachments to the things that are holding us down and look towards the sun as we move on to a better place.
And that is all for my corny, sentimental, over-sharing blog for the summer! Stay tuned for my random, crazy, let's avoid packing one coming soon this week :)
xo <3
Monday, June 4, 2012
Golden Ponies
29 ways to stay creative....
from stumbleupon. Commentary in pink by myself
(I apologize in advance for the Junie B. Jonesish writing style that popped out towards the end.)
1. Make lists.
Ways to Trick People into Thinking I'm a Disney Princess
1. Talk to animals, inanimate objects, and myself. Frequently.
2. Have some form of sparkle on at all times.
3. Sing impromptu original songs about the current situation I'm in. Include choreography.
2. Carry a notebook everywhere.
So that if someone needs their fate to be decided by a foldey fortune teller/cootie catcher thing, it may be done immediately.
3. Try free writing.
By blogging about your colorful life and shoving it into your friends' faces by posting a link to the blog on facebook. Like-a-so....
4. Get away from the computer.
And do a cartwheel. Or try doing a back bend and then walking on all fours but its like upside down all fours. It's quite confusing to the brain, actually.
5. Quit beating yourself up.
Seriously, though. This is a good one. God made you exactly how you are for a reason. Everytime you insult yourself you are insulting the wonderful One!! You wouldn't tell your friends the things you say to yourself, so don't do it!
6. Take breaks.
To hula hoop. If a hula is not available, drink some green tea and color in a coloring book!
7. Sing in the shower.
Maresy dotes and dosey dotes and little lamsey divey.
8. Drink coffee.
Or not.....
9. Listen to new music.
Nicki Minaj Pink Friday Roman's Revenge. Yes.
10. Be open.
Maybe not too open though. I kinda tell the whole world everything about me and everything that I think when I think it. Therefore, what could be sexy, mysterious Veronica, then turns into weird, ridiculous Ronnie.
11. Surround yourself with creative people.
Such as myself. Ha :)
12. Get feedback.
Well I actually don't really like this one because maybe you should just be happy with what God and yourself thinks of yourself. Like if I asked for feedback about these blogs or the songs that I write or the way I dance around, it probably wouldn't all be that lovely. And then it would just ruin the good vibes I get when I write, sing, or dance...whether I'm a pro or just a silly sil!
13. Collaborate.
Yes. Do that. People are great :)
14. Don't give up.
I actually give up a lot kind of haha. I probably need to work on that one before I comment further.
15. Practice, practice, practice.
Also gotta work on this one too....if I don't get something right away I get a lump in my throat and feel like crying and then I move on to something that I get. Woops!
16. Allow yourself to make mistakes.
This reminded me of this super cool book I saw in Barnes and Noble the other day! I don't remember what it's called, but it's a children's book that shows a lot of different accidents made into cute little pictures. Like this coffee spill was turned into a little bunny I think. Or something like that. It was fun, though.
17. Go somewhere new.
Unless you have $20 in your checking account. Then you should probably not go somewhere new for a while.
18. Count your blessings.
Also you can do this when you are bored at work. I could go on for a full 8 hour shift and still have more to be thankful for!!!
19. Get lots of rest.
Naaaahhh. I don't really like to sleep. I wish Edward would bite me and then not drink my blood. So I could be a vampire. So I didn't have to sleep. Cuz it's kind of a waste of time if you ask me. But I'd ask Edward to make it so I was a vampire who still ate human food. Cuz blood makes me cry. And also, I like sour patch kids and cotton candy and macaroni and cheese too much.
20. Take risks.
That spicy little banana pepper you're afraid to try? Might actually turn out to be delightful! Worst case scenario your mouth gets tingly and hot and you have to drink a gallon of milk and then you throw up cuz you drank it too fast.
21. Break the rules.
But I actually don't think this one is the greatest idea. Like what about the rule of you can't drive in the far left lane? I've broken that rule a few times and I don't get more creative. I get honked at, flipped off, and a bunch of shaking heads. And then I move over so I am with the flow of traffic again. Oopsie daisies.
22. Don't force it.
Yes. Cuz if you try to force open a cap on a bottle of soap or something...it will just pop right off and hit your eye and also make your heart jump because it scared you a little.
23. Read a page of the dictionary.
Umm....maybe I'll try that one when I'm older. That doesn't sound too fun right now.
24. Create a framework.
.......whatever that means....
25. Stop trying to be someone else's perfect.
Oh believe me. I've been trying since I was 12. And ya know how that worked out for me? Well, I'm still single, that's how it worked out!
26. Got an idea? Write it down!
In your phone's notepad. And then be confused when you look back through it a month later and wonder why an ee cummings poem is typed out in your phone...
27. Clean your workspace.
HA!
28. Have fun.
Well, duh! If you can't create at least 10 minutes of fun in each day then I am very sad for you. Also you should give me a call. Cuz I'm so fun.
29. Finish something.
Like you just did right NOW by reading this whole crazy long blog I just wrote! Congratulations!
from stumbleupon. Commentary in pink by myself
(I apologize in advance for the Junie B. Jonesish writing style that popped out towards the end.)
1. Make lists.
Ways to Trick People into Thinking I'm a Disney Princess
1. Talk to animals, inanimate objects, and myself. Frequently.
2. Have some form of sparkle on at all times.
3. Sing impromptu original songs about the current situation I'm in. Include choreography.
2. Carry a notebook everywhere.
So that if someone needs their fate to be decided by a foldey fortune teller/cootie catcher thing, it may be done immediately.
3. Try free writing.
By blogging about your colorful life and shoving it into your friends' faces by posting a link to the blog on facebook. Like-a-so....
4. Get away from the computer.
And do a cartwheel. Or try doing a back bend and then walking on all fours but its like upside down all fours. It's quite confusing to the brain, actually.
5. Quit beating yourself up.
Seriously, though. This is a good one. God made you exactly how you are for a reason. Everytime you insult yourself you are insulting the wonderful One!! You wouldn't tell your friends the things you say to yourself, so don't do it!
6. Take breaks.
To hula hoop. If a hula is not available, drink some green tea and color in a coloring book!
7. Sing in the shower.
Maresy dotes and dosey dotes and little lamsey divey.
8. Drink coffee.
Or not.....
9. Listen to new music.
Nicki Minaj Pink Friday Roman's Revenge. Yes.
10. Be open.
Maybe not too open though. I kinda tell the whole world everything about me and everything that I think when I think it. Therefore, what could be sexy, mysterious Veronica, then turns into weird, ridiculous Ronnie.
11. Surround yourself with creative people.
Such as myself. Ha :)
12. Get feedback.
Well I actually don't really like this one because maybe you should just be happy with what God and yourself thinks of yourself. Like if I asked for feedback about these blogs or the songs that I write or the way I dance around, it probably wouldn't all be that lovely. And then it would just ruin the good vibes I get when I write, sing, or dance...whether I'm a pro or just a silly sil!
13. Collaborate.
Yes. Do that. People are great :)
14. Don't give up.
I actually give up a lot kind of haha. I probably need to work on that one before I comment further.
15. Practice, practice, practice.
Also gotta work on this one too....if I don't get something right away I get a lump in my throat and feel like crying and then I move on to something that I get. Woops!
16. Allow yourself to make mistakes.
This reminded me of this super cool book I saw in Barnes and Noble the other day! I don't remember what it's called, but it's a children's book that shows a lot of different accidents made into cute little pictures. Like this coffee spill was turned into a little bunny I think. Or something like that. It was fun, though.
17. Go somewhere new.
Unless you have $20 in your checking account. Then you should probably not go somewhere new for a while.
18. Count your blessings.
Also you can do this when you are bored at work. I could go on for a full 8 hour shift and still have more to be thankful for!!!
19. Get lots of rest.
Naaaahhh. I don't really like to sleep. I wish Edward would bite me and then not drink my blood. So I could be a vampire. So I didn't have to sleep. Cuz it's kind of a waste of time if you ask me. But I'd ask Edward to make it so I was a vampire who still ate human food. Cuz blood makes me cry. And also, I like sour patch kids and cotton candy and macaroni and cheese too much.
20. Take risks.
That spicy little banana pepper you're afraid to try? Might actually turn out to be delightful! Worst case scenario your mouth gets tingly and hot and you have to drink a gallon of milk and then you throw up cuz you drank it too fast.
21. Break the rules.
But I actually don't think this one is the greatest idea. Like what about the rule of you can't drive in the far left lane? I've broken that rule a few times and I don't get more creative. I get honked at, flipped off, and a bunch of shaking heads. And then I move over so I am with the flow of traffic again. Oopsie daisies.
22. Don't force it.
Yes. Cuz if you try to force open a cap on a bottle of soap or something...it will just pop right off and hit your eye and also make your heart jump because it scared you a little.
23. Read a page of the dictionary.
Umm....maybe I'll try that one when I'm older. That doesn't sound too fun right now.
24. Create a framework.
.......whatever that means....
25. Stop trying to be someone else's perfect.
Oh believe me. I've been trying since I was 12. And ya know how that worked out for me? Well, I'm still single, that's how it worked out!
26. Got an idea? Write it down!
In your phone's notepad. And then be confused when you look back through it a month later and wonder why an ee cummings poem is typed out in your phone...
27. Clean your workspace.
HA!
28. Have fun.
Well, duh! If you can't create at least 10 minutes of fun in each day then I am very sad for you. Also you should give me a call. Cuz I'm so fun.
29. Finish something.
Like you just did right NOW by reading this whole crazy long blog I just wrote! Congratulations!
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Sparkly Clorox Wipes
It has been much too long since I've last done this. However, now more than ever is a great time to start back up again! In less than 48 hours I will have completed my Freshman year of college. After actually putting that right out there a few thoughts come to mind. First of all....yuck! I'm old! How does time fly by soo fast?! I honestly feel like it was just a week ago that I was scared and confused, moving into the dorms with an embarrassing amount of things and an embarrassing amount of nerves! But second of all, I think of how much I learned this year and how important it was to me. I can't even begin to count all of the crazy memories I get to pack up with all of my things and leave here with. Good or bad, they have brought me closer to the person that I need to be.
School-wise I learned that no matter how hard you study, if you haven't gone to class you probably aren't going to do so hot on the tests. I learned that it's important to form some sort of relationship with your professor because not only are they more personally invested in you, but you are more invested in the class and will care a lot more about doing well. I learned that if you are a procrastinator now, you probably will always be...you just have to learn how to deal with prolonged stress, creating quality work in a quick way, and late nights!
Boy-wise I learned that it's great to be single. I learned that even if it means being alone, standing your ground and respecting yourself is something you'll never regret! I learned what isn't worth putting up with no matter how much you care about the person. I learned that fate has a way of interfering with your plans. I learned that letting yourself be caught up on one person will make you miss out on chances with a lot of great people. And I learned that even if it freaks em out, it's probably best to just be your weird self from the get go so no one gets scared later on when the true crazy comes out.
Self-wise I learned that I am unorganized, messy, scattered, and a procrastinator, and always will be.....and that's okay! I learned that when life feels like it's hard, it gets harder...but then you just learn how to deal and all of a sudden you realize you're content and happy and grateful for life. I learned that I can do more than I think I can. I learned that it's okay that I'm kind of weird because the people that don't like it are boring anyways...helps to weed out some great friends from people I wouldn't necessarily get along with. I learned how important my family is to me and how incredible they are. I learned that I'm going into the right career path.
Faith-wise I learned that God really does have everything planned out to a T. I learned that where I'm at now or at any given moment is exactly where He needs me to be and He has a great reason for putting me there. I learned that He's really always there and that He won't lead anyone to a path they can't hike through. I learned how to trust God's plan for me and how to not try to make my own. I learned how to talk to God like he's my best friend (and then he became my best friend!). I learned that life is beautiful.
This year I made some amazing friends, gained another sister in my lovely Jordyn, got some crazy memories, drove over a few bumps in the road, and came out a stronger person than I've ever been!
Love life! <3
School-wise I learned that no matter how hard you study, if you haven't gone to class you probably aren't going to do so hot on the tests. I learned that it's important to form some sort of relationship with your professor because not only are they more personally invested in you, but you are more invested in the class and will care a lot more about doing well. I learned that if you are a procrastinator now, you probably will always be...you just have to learn how to deal with prolonged stress, creating quality work in a quick way, and late nights!
Boy-wise I learned that it's great to be single. I learned that even if it means being alone, standing your ground and respecting yourself is something you'll never regret! I learned what isn't worth putting up with no matter how much you care about the person. I learned that fate has a way of interfering with your plans. I learned that letting yourself be caught up on one person will make you miss out on chances with a lot of great people. And I learned that even if it freaks em out, it's probably best to just be your weird self from the get go so no one gets scared later on when the true crazy comes out.
Self-wise I learned that I am unorganized, messy, scattered, and a procrastinator, and always will be.....and that's okay! I learned that when life feels like it's hard, it gets harder...but then you just learn how to deal and all of a sudden you realize you're content and happy and grateful for life. I learned that I can do more than I think I can. I learned that it's okay that I'm kind of weird because the people that don't like it are boring anyways...helps to weed out some great friends from people I wouldn't necessarily get along with. I learned how important my family is to me and how incredible they are. I learned that I'm going into the right career path.
Faith-wise I learned that God really does have everything planned out to a T. I learned that where I'm at now or at any given moment is exactly where He needs me to be and He has a great reason for putting me there. I learned that He's really always there and that He won't lead anyone to a path they can't hike through. I learned how to trust God's plan for me and how to not try to make my own. I learned how to talk to God like he's my best friend (and then he became my best friend!). I learned that life is beautiful.
This year I made some amazing friends, gained another sister in my lovely Jordyn, got some crazy memories, drove over a few bumps in the road, and came out a stronger person than I've ever been!
Love life! <3
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Rivers!
Tomorrow I have a midterm paper due. Have I started it? No. Am I worried about it? Not yet. Will I get it done? Absolutely!
Okay now that we have that established, we all know why I'm writing this blog...avoidance! But anyways, in 30 minutes I will be 19 years old. Now I know I've only lived just under two decades, but it's been long enough to have learned some very important things. Right now I want to talk about happiness.
Every morning we all wake up to a clean slate. There are a million things that could happen in our day...some we can control, and others we can't (such as this ridiculous snow Bozeman got today!). Now some days things just seem to be working with us...like your life is a river and your destination is just down the bend. Other days it seems as if we have to paddle upstream all day just so we don't move backwards!
Those lazy river floating down in a tube days are easy to enjoy. But the doggy paddling, stuck in the same spot days...those are the days that tell us most about who we are.
We've all had our fair share of paddle days. Heck, the past three months have been loaded with paddle days for me! But I think there is a secret to getting through those days, whether it is a random occurance, or you're stuck in paddle-mode for a good while.
The secret is to let those paddle days build the muscles of your soul. Yeah, the lazy floating days are great!But we don't have to improve anything about ourselves to get through those days because they are already just how we'd like them to be. The paddle days are the days where we "work out" and grow as people. Complaining and griping about paddling is just like eating 3 happy meals after running a mile...TOTALLY negates the hard work you've just done for yourself!
I think we know we are on the right track when at the end of a rough day we can: 1. Still clearly see the blessings in our lives and easily thank God for them. 2. Laugh about the little mishaps that may have felt like a huge deal at the time. and 3. Reflect on what was rough about the day, think about what "muscle" of our soul it exercised, and not necessarily know for sure, but look for the positive reasoning behind the paddle day.
So whether today is a floating day or a paddle day, we all have great things in our lives to acknowledge!
Wishing you infinity plus one happy days,
Your Sparkle Blogger :) <3
Okay now that we have that established, we all know why I'm writing this blog...avoidance! But anyways, in 30 minutes I will be 19 years old. Now I know I've only lived just under two decades, but it's been long enough to have learned some very important things. Right now I want to talk about happiness.
Every morning we all wake up to a clean slate. There are a million things that could happen in our day...some we can control, and others we can't (such as this ridiculous snow Bozeman got today!). Now some days things just seem to be working with us...like your life is a river and your destination is just down the bend. Other days it seems as if we have to paddle upstream all day just so we don't move backwards!
Those lazy river floating down in a tube days are easy to enjoy. But the doggy paddling, stuck in the same spot days...those are the days that tell us most about who we are.
We've all had our fair share of paddle days. Heck, the past three months have been loaded with paddle days for me! But I think there is a secret to getting through those days, whether it is a random occurance, or you're stuck in paddle-mode for a good while.
The secret is to let those paddle days build the muscles of your soul. Yeah, the lazy floating days are great!But we don't have to improve anything about ourselves to get through those days because they are already just how we'd like them to be. The paddle days are the days where we "work out" and grow as people. Complaining and griping about paddling is just like eating 3 happy meals after running a mile...TOTALLY negates the hard work you've just done for yourself!
I think we know we are on the right track when at the end of a rough day we can: 1. Still clearly see the blessings in our lives and easily thank God for them. 2. Laugh about the little mishaps that may have felt like a huge deal at the time. and 3. Reflect on what was rough about the day, think about what "muscle" of our soul it exercised, and not necessarily know for sure, but look for the positive reasoning behind the paddle day.
So whether today is a floating day or a paddle day, we all have great things in our lives to acknowledge!
Wishing you infinity plus one happy days,
Your Sparkle Blogger :) <3
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Not Plural
Those of you who know me well, or are my facebook friends at least, know that I have been as single as a frying pan for such a long time. Sometimes I get annoyed with it, but mostly I'm perfectly content with it...FOR NOW. The other day my lovely Jordyn and I were laughing about my unfortunate luck with boys when I was inspired to create this blog....19 because I will be that many years in just a few short days!
19 Reasons Why I'm Single
1. I spend many Saturday nights doing homework, cleaning my room, and squirting reddi whip into my mouth.
2. To this day any guy that I've ever even had a slight crush on has a code name. Examples: Plaidy, Lezzy, Retainer, Crunchy Grass, Red, Toddler, Captain Underpants...I could go on forever.
3. I have a baby pink and purple unicorn pillow pet sitting on my bed right next to my huge rainbow unicorn pillow pet.
4. Most websites I'm a member of (ie:facebook, blogger, pinterest, etc.) have the word peace, happy, or sparkles in my user name...
5. I'd rather spend my days associating with humans under the age of 8 than ones my own age.
6. I have an inhaler that I use daily....
7. 98% percent of my waking moments are spent either singing, dancing, jumping, laughing, sitting on the ground, or eating.
8. My heart likes me to be interested in guys that either have girlfriends, are not interested in me, or are sassy.
9. I am terrible at texting back.
10. I'm not okay with pre mature physical activity...if ya know what I mean...
11. My brain likes to create little scenarios and movies in my head about the type of guy that will sweep me off my feet and the cute things he will do to swoon me....turns out my brain is bad at picking a dream guy because I have not found one yet...!
12. I have a cough that sounds like a seal/dog/old man.
13. Sometimes I have a lisp when I get excited and talk fast.
14. I tell everyone everything about myself...therefore, I do not have the sexy mysterious thing going for me...at all.
15. I use more of my free time to browse pinterest, creep on facebook, and take naps, than I do to go to social events that may allow me to actually meet a nice singling.
16. I get confused easily and the confusion usually ruins crucial things. Example: Last time I made brownies I mixed up the water and oil measurements and ended up with pizza hut grease brownies. (Also right now I just got confused on how to spell grease...."grease? no that's like the movie. okay...greece...??...no that's a country...oh okay grease.")
17. Murphy's law loves me.
18. 98% of people think I'm the weirdest person they know the second they get a glimpse of uncensored Ronnie...."I just wanna sit under the table right now."
19. Because this is the picture of me when I go to bed at night: Hair on top of head, no makeup, double retainer metal mouth, and clothes 8 sizes too big for me....cute....
19 Reasons Why I'm Single
1. I spend many Saturday nights doing homework, cleaning my room, and squirting reddi whip into my mouth.
2. To this day any guy that I've ever even had a slight crush on has a code name. Examples: Plaidy, Lezzy, Retainer, Crunchy Grass, Red, Toddler, Captain Underpants...I could go on forever.
3. I have a baby pink and purple unicorn pillow pet sitting on my bed right next to my huge rainbow unicorn pillow pet.
4. Most websites I'm a member of (ie:facebook, blogger, pinterest, etc.) have the word peace, happy, or sparkles in my user name...
5. I'd rather spend my days associating with humans under the age of 8 than ones my own age.
6. I have an inhaler that I use daily....
7. 98% percent of my waking moments are spent either singing, dancing, jumping, laughing, sitting on the ground, or eating.
8. My heart likes me to be interested in guys that either have girlfriends, are not interested in me, or are sassy.
9. I am terrible at texting back.
10. I'm not okay with pre mature physical activity...if ya know what I mean...
11. My brain likes to create little scenarios and movies in my head about the type of guy that will sweep me off my feet and the cute things he will do to swoon me....turns out my brain is bad at picking a dream guy because I have not found one yet...!
12. I have a cough that sounds like a seal/dog/old man.
13. Sometimes I have a lisp when I get excited and talk fast.
14. I tell everyone everything about myself...therefore, I do not have the sexy mysterious thing going for me...at all.
15. I use more of my free time to browse pinterest, creep on facebook, and take naps, than I do to go to social events that may allow me to actually meet a nice singling.
16. I get confused easily and the confusion usually ruins crucial things. Example: Last time I made brownies I mixed up the water and oil measurements and ended up with pizza hut grease brownies. (Also right now I just got confused on how to spell grease...."grease? no that's like the movie. okay...greece...??...no that's a country...oh okay grease.")
17. Murphy's law loves me.
18. 98% of people think I'm the weirdest person they know the second they get a glimpse of uncensored Ronnie...."I just wanna sit under the table right now."
19. Because this is the picture of me when I go to bed at night: Hair on top of head, no makeup, double retainer metal mouth, and clothes 8 sizes too big for me....cute....
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Watery Windows
Let me just start things out with a little countdown:
1 week until Valentine's day.
1 month until I am 19.
3 months until I am no longer a Freshman in college.
4.5 months until Miss Megan's and my California adventure.
With all of this excitement coming up I can't help but think that maybe countdowns aren't such a good thing, though. I mean, at any given point in anyone's life, there is always something they are looking forward to. Which is great, because that means great things are to come! But maybe we need to just look at the now and see how great it is. Everyone is stressed about something and not every day is as lovely as we'd like it to be, but everyone has something to look at and smile about. Even if it's "Hey! The sun came up today and the atmosphere didn't burst while I was sleeping to cause a lack of oxygen in the world so I can still breathe!"
Haha...but seriously. There's always something good.
So now to counteract my countdown (which I know I bashed, but they are still fun! :)) I will make a list of the lovely things about right NOW:
I get to have a sleepover with my best friend every night now that we live together.
I met the loveliest person the other day that has put me in just the greatest mood lately.
My room is clean!
There were no spontaneous fire alarms while I was asleep last night.
I have the best brother, two sisters, parents, and nieces and nephews anyone could ask for!
Thanks to jergen's natural glow I am looking down at some pretty tan arms :)
Jeans that were tight at the beginning of the year are fitting quite loosely today!
God has blessed me with a beautiful life, and no matter what happens, will always be a constant in my life.
And though it is extremely cold outside, the sun is shining!!
What are YOU happy about today? :) <3
1 week until Valentine's day.
1 month until I am 19.
3 months until I am no longer a Freshman in college.
4.5 months until Miss Megan's and my California adventure.
With all of this excitement coming up I can't help but think that maybe countdowns aren't such a good thing, though. I mean, at any given point in anyone's life, there is always something they are looking forward to. Which is great, because that means great things are to come! But maybe we need to just look at the now and see how great it is. Everyone is stressed about something and not every day is as lovely as we'd like it to be, but everyone has something to look at and smile about. Even if it's "Hey! The sun came up today and the atmosphere didn't burst while I was sleeping to cause a lack of oxygen in the world so I can still breathe!"
Haha...but seriously. There's always something good.
So now to counteract my countdown (which I know I bashed, but they are still fun! :)) I will make a list of the lovely things about right NOW:
I get to have a sleepover with my best friend every night now that we live together.
I met the loveliest person the other day that has put me in just the greatest mood lately.
My room is clean!
There were no spontaneous fire alarms while I was asleep last night.
I have the best brother, two sisters, parents, and nieces and nephews anyone could ask for!
Thanks to jergen's natural glow I am looking down at some pretty tan arms :)
Jeans that were tight at the beginning of the year are fitting quite loosely today!
God has blessed me with a beautiful life, and no matter what happens, will always be a constant in my life.
And though it is extremely cold outside, the sun is shining!!
What are YOU happy about today? :) <3
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
It's Always January
Seems to me that if I can count on one month out of the year to be a drag, it's usually January...good news is that we are halfway through it!
Now let me just be a typical girl for this next blog. Not counting on any guys to truly care or read this, but before getting into anything with me this is what they should be aware of:
1. If I introduce myself to you as Ronnie and you STILL call me Veronica because it's "sexier", your chances with me will greatly decrease. Those who know me well know that Ronnie is a better fitting name for myself, as I am not mysterious or sexy at all!
2. I overanalyze everything to the point where I drive my own self nuts.
3. If you can make me laugh your chances with me will greatly increase.
4. I am hate games and guessing. If you like me tell me and act like it, if you don't, leave me alone and don't lead me on! It's as simple as that.
5. I am extremely shy until we have spent a little time together. After that I have the most random and hyper personality. If you are too serious you will not like me!
6. Getting random presents makes me feel awkward.
7. Don't let the first compliment you give me be that I have big boobs. And don't let the first thing you wanna do with me be something sexual.
8. I hula hoop and color in coloring books. I love sparkles and flowers and pink and unicorns. I'm still kind of a 6 year old sometimes.
9. If you sing to me I will be enchanted by you. I love boys who love music.
10. I absolutely hate making decisions.
If you're reading this and you're a guy you're either interested in how to woo me, think my random thoughts are entertaining, or are wondering if some of these things are mentioned because of you. In the case of the last, if you are wondering then yes it probably is about you. Ya stupid ducks and plaids, you know who you are!! Haha. Good day! :)
Now let me just be a typical girl for this next blog. Not counting on any guys to truly care or read this, but before getting into anything with me this is what they should be aware of:
1. If I introduce myself to you as Ronnie and you STILL call me Veronica because it's "sexier", your chances with me will greatly decrease. Those who know me well know that Ronnie is a better fitting name for myself, as I am not mysterious or sexy at all!
2. I overanalyze everything to the point where I drive my own self nuts.
3. If you can make me laugh your chances with me will greatly increase.
4. I am hate games and guessing. If you like me tell me and act like it, if you don't, leave me alone and don't lead me on! It's as simple as that.
5. I am extremely shy until we have spent a little time together. After that I have the most random and hyper personality. If you are too serious you will not like me!
6. Getting random presents makes me feel awkward.
7. Don't let the first compliment you give me be that I have big boobs. And don't let the first thing you wanna do with me be something sexual.
8. I hula hoop and color in coloring books. I love sparkles and flowers and pink and unicorns. I'm still kind of a 6 year old sometimes.
9. If you sing to me I will be enchanted by you. I love boys who love music.
10. I absolutely hate making decisions.
If you're reading this and you're a guy you're either interested in how to woo me, think my random thoughts are entertaining, or are wondering if some of these things are mentioned because of you. In the case of the last, if you are wondering then yes it probably is about you. Ya stupid ducks and plaids, you know who you are!! Haha. Good day! :)
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Better Late!!
Yes, I know 2011 ended 13 days ago, however, I still am going to do a little questioney recap of my wonderful year!
What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Graduated high school, lived away from home, worked at a retail store, went to college, lived in a tiny room, laundry, made my own doctor's appointments....etc.....college = culture shock when you have a Momma and Daddy who do so much for you!
Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My resoultion list was ridonkulous. Mediate every day? Record my songs? Read the whole Bible? I did none. And I have never meditated in my life by the way...I don't know what I was thinking with that one.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Sister-in-law Jen and sister Brianna!!! Auntie time!
Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, no.
What countries did you visit?
Canada...twice!
What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Well...I would like to LACK toxic relationships in 2012 that I HAD in 2011. But I would like to HAVE a better relationship with God, a better body, and more fun that I LACKED.
(ALL CAPS WAS UNNECESSARY FOR THAT I REALIZE HAHA :))
What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 6, Skylar was born. May 22, I graduated from high school. July 7, Haylie was born. August 1. And December 31!
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Going to International Science and Engineering Fair in California (nerd, I know) and graduating high school!!
What was your biggest failure?
I held onto a very toxic relationship for way too long and let it destroy me when I should have spent the time wasted on other things.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Don't believe so! I'm a lucky girl!
What was the best thing you bought?
Well Momma and Daddy got me the iPhone but I guess the best thing I bought was my college education...how corny and boring!
Where did most of your money go?
College.
What did you get really excited about?
Living with Brookie and Jeremy this summer, all the insane awesome people I have met since I left Sunburst in May, and my two beautiful nieces being born!
What song will always remind you of 2011?
YOU AND IIIII....YOU YOU AND IIIII!
BOY YOU GOT MY HEART BEAT RUNNING AWAY!
PARTY ROCKIN IN THE HOUUUUSEEE TONIIIGGGHT!
Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
much much happier!
thinner or fatter? the same I believe
richer or poorer? poorer....thank you for being a $899,768,000, tuition.
What do you wish you’d done more of?
Dancing and socializing!
What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying, being pitiful, and eating...haha.
How did you spend Christmas?
All my siblings, Momma and Daddy, cuties nieces, awesome cousins, aunts, and uncles!
What was your favorite TV program?
One Tree Hill, American Idol, Glee, New Girl, Awkward, and Teen Mom!
What were your favorite books of the year?
The Crowning Glory of Calla Lily Ponder!
What was your favorite music from this year?
Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, Country, top 20, Ray Lamontagne, and my alternatives like Foster the People, the Maine, All Time Low, etc.
What were your favorite films of the year?
I didn't really go to movies haha. Water for Elephants was really good but super sad :(
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I
I turned 18...and to be completely honest I don't even remember my birthday!!!! It was on a Monday so I'm sure I just went to school, I didn't even get a cake!!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If Ryan Gosling would have just proposed to me already! Sheesh. Also if my room was like 10 square feet bigger. Haha
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Pretty jeans! Sparkles, flowers, and flowy tops! The last month was spent in sweat pants though basically...gross.....
What kept you sane? My sisters and parents, Stephanie, Jacoba, Angie, and Ashlee at the beginning and at college lovely Jordyn and Ashlee and having Brianna's house to escape to!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
There are too many good people in this world to waste time trying to get the bad ones to care!
What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Graduated high school, lived away from home, worked at a retail store, went to college, lived in a tiny room, laundry, made my own doctor's appointments....etc.....college = culture shock when you have a Momma and Daddy who do so much for you!
Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My resoultion list was ridonkulous. Mediate every day? Record my songs? Read the whole Bible? I did none. And I have never meditated in my life by the way...I don't know what I was thinking with that one.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Sister-in-law Jen and sister Brianna!!! Auntie time!
Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, no.
What countries did you visit?
Canada...twice!
What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Well...I would like to LACK toxic relationships in 2012 that I HAD in 2011. But I would like to HAVE a better relationship with God, a better body, and more fun that I LACKED.
(ALL CAPS WAS UNNECESSARY FOR THAT I REALIZE HAHA :))
What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 6, Skylar was born. May 22, I graduated from high school. July 7, Haylie was born. August 1. And December 31!
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Going to International Science and Engineering Fair in California (nerd, I know) and graduating high school!!
What was your biggest failure?
I held onto a very toxic relationship for way too long and let it destroy me when I should have spent the time wasted on other things.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Don't believe so! I'm a lucky girl!
What was the best thing you bought?
Well Momma and Daddy got me the iPhone but I guess the best thing I bought was my college education...how corny and boring!
Where did most of your money go?
College.
What did you get really excited about?
Living with Brookie and Jeremy this summer, all the insane awesome people I have met since I left Sunburst in May, and my two beautiful nieces being born!
What song will always remind you of 2011?
YOU AND IIIII....YOU YOU AND IIIII!
BOY YOU GOT MY HEART BEAT RUNNING AWAY!
PARTY ROCKIN IN THE HOUUUUSEEE TONIIIGGGHT!
Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder?
much much happier!
thinner or fatter? the same I believe
richer or poorer? poorer....thank you for being a $899,768,000, tuition.
What do you wish you’d done more of?
Dancing and socializing!
What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying, being pitiful, and eating...haha.
How did you spend Christmas?
All my siblings, Momma and Daddy, cuties nieces, awesome cousins, aunts, and uncles!
What was your favorite TV program?
One Tree Hill, American Idol, Glee, New Girl, Awkward, and Teen Mom!
What were your favorite books of the year?
The Crowning Glory of Calla Lily Ponder!
What was your favorite music from this year?
Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, Country, top 20, Ray Lamontagne, and my alternatives like Foster the People, the Maine, All Time Low, etc.
What were your favorite films of the year?
I didn't really go to movies haha. Water for Elephants was really good but super sad :(
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I
I turned 18...and to be completely honest I don't even remember my birthday!!!! It was on a Monday so I'm sure I just went to school, I didn't even get a cake!!
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If Ryan Gosling would have just proposed to me already! Sheesh. Also if my room was like 10 square feet bigger. Haha
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Pretty jeans! Sparkles, flowers, and flowy tops! The last month was spent in sweat pants though basically...gross.....
What kept you sane? My sisters and parents, Stephanie, Jacoba, Angie, and Ashlee at the beginning and at college lovely Jordyn and Ashlee and having Brianna's house to escape to!
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
There are too many good people in this world to waste time trying to get the bad ones to care!
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